BabyLove!
<3
The one person that actually made you feel amazing and loved wants nothing to do with you now.
The one person that would pretty much drop anything to be with you will no longer do that.
You feel like you will never be good enough for the one you love.
Wanting to spend time with someone and feeling like they don’t really care of you hang out or not….
I’m so lonely.
I hate not having a life.
I cannot have a child with a child….
Grow the fuck up!
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t afraid to tell people I think I am depressed.. It comes with highs and lows… Sometimes I can just put it in the back of my head and not care but when you grow up never really feeling loved and then now the one person you love more then anything makes you feel like they don’t care it’s hard to push it away into the back of my head.My thoughts get the best of me I constantly think he doesn’t love me or think I’m beautiful. I mean deep down inside I know he loves me but does he want to be with me or is it forced because I’m him first love and I’m carrying his child. I feel like its all going to end soon. I never seen love last and I never expect somebody to love me forever. I just wish it ended before it gets harder and harder to let go. Love is a curse and a blessing… The times together are amazing but the end is the worst. I’m not saying I want it to end I’m just saying I fear it will eventually, and if we aren’t happy one day we shouldn’t stay together I don’t want my child not knowing with love is really like or thinking its okay to stay in an unhappy relationship. I grew up knowing my parents disliked each other and don’t want to be together that’s why I love with ever bit I have inside me.
I need to get this off my chest.
Boyfriend singing Adele! Haha
I love him!
Betty white
